Compassion

So last summer I went on a church retreat with my friend's church. The retreat was help by an organization called Student Life. I went to one the summer before that so I knew pretty much what it was like. One night, a woman came to talk to us about an organization called Compassion. It's an organization that helps kids in poor countries like Africa and Indonesia and other places. They go and take pictures of the kids and get their information and then go to places like retreats and churches to give out their information in packets. The normal people sponsor them. When you sponsor a child, each month you send $38 to Compassion and they provide the child with food, medical care, and other things.The lady that came to talk to us used to be a child in need of a sponsor and someone answered her prayers. Now, she is a grown woman and very thankful to her sponsor.
That night I felt something stir inside me and knew God was telling me to do something, I just wasn't sure what.But the next day I woke up and I knew I was supposed to sponsor a child. So my friend Logan came with me to the auditorium, which was where the Compassion table was set up (we were on a college campus) and I sponsored my child Monika. Through being a sponsor to her, we have formed a great relationship. We have so much in common like our love for music and the color pink. I'm an only child and she asked if she could call me her sister. I knew I had done the right thing. 
There are many children, thousands even, still in need of a sponsor. There are especially a lot of children over 10 in need because they are often overlooked by sponsors who want younger children. I have sponsored Monika for almost a year and I know if you decide to sponsor a child, you and the child will be extremely happy. These children need our help and love, so please answer their prayers. 
For more information or to sponsor a child, please click on the link below. 
compassion.com  

Stand Out

Have you ever felt like you blend in with the crowd a little too much? Like you've become comfortable with being in the background? Like it's time too stand out and o something different? Change it up a bit, do new stuff. Too many times have I discovered my contentnous with being practically invisible. I no longer wish too be ignored in order to avoid gossip and whispers, but wish to stand out and show everyone something new and exciting about me. I don't want to blend into the background, but be center stage and in the spotlight. To have people talk about me and how much they admire me and my courage and talent. There are many ways to handle this, and my first idea is to dye my hair. RED. That way, no one can not notice me walking down the street or hallway. I'll gain attention and stir a few people. After that, just a few more things to help ensure me to stand out. They take a little bit more effort than going to a hair salon and getting my hair colored, but in the end, I will be noticed for accomplishing them. My whole life I've been average. Not popular, but not a loser. Not a genius, but not a failer. Average. Maybe more on the less than average side, blending in a little too much. Is it too much to want to stand out a littl? Make some new friends and spread my wings? Am I obligated to stay at the level I'm at as to not "break the status quo"? I'm tired of being average and blending in. I want new experiences. I want to STAND OUT.   

What Makes You Beautiful

There's a new song out called What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction. They are a boy group from England and they are extremely cute and amazing singers. This song makes me happy every time i hear it on the radio. I stop whatever I'm doing and turn it up. I only wish a guy would come along and say all the things they say in that song to me. It's about a girl who's pretty but she doesn't know it and the guys are trying to tell her she is. Why can't guys be that kind and considerate and awesome and do that in real life. Just break out in song and sing that to me and you've won my heart. Seriously guys, grow a pair and do that. I'm sure tons of girls would love that. A guy who can sing and is cute is awesome in my book any day. There are many days when I wake up and look in the mirror and just think I'm not pretty. It would make my day so much better and easier if I could come to school after that and have my boyfriend tell me I'm beautiful no matter what. But first I need to get a boyfriend obviously, and I have a pretty good idea of someone who would be an amazing boyfriend. If only he liked me.

Friends

Friends are there through the ups and downs. They help us in our times of need and we return the favors. But what about those times when the problem is our friends. Who do we talk to? Other friends maybe? Where do you go? Friends can help and hurt and you just need to find the ones who help more. Or go and find an acquaintance at lunch and make them your new friendOr what about when we're sick and tired of everyone we hang out with and need a new crowd of faces? Who do we turn to? At lunch when we don't where or with who to sit. In the hall and in class when we don't want to talk to the same people over and over. Will someone stop us from expanding our horizons, or can we do what we want? The people who said they were there for you turn their backs on you and you're lost.. It's never to late to get new friends or go back to old ones. Even old people make new friends all the time. It's tough even for them. Especially for us when the people we think love us betray us and get mad over us because of stupid things like guys. It's sisters before misters people, seriously. So if you have a friend issue don't be afraid to get some space and do other things. It might help or even be better than before.

My Sun

Shall I compare thee to the sun?
Your warmth seeps into me.
Everyday we spend together is fun,
especially when we go to the sea.
My heart yearns for you,
and a look I shall take.
Even though you shan't woo,
my love for you won't shake.
Though others strive for you, you shall be mine,
but for every girl you see you yearn.
With you I will never whine,
unless you will not seem to learn.
At night, I cry, for without you I sleep,
but in the day, I shall never weep.

One Shot

In our lives, we get many opportunities to do things. We get chances to say hi to people, or tell someone how we really feel. But for somethings, you get only one shot, THE shot. The shot at making something out of yourself, or proving yourself to someone. The shot to get noticed for your talent and become famous. You don't get many shots like that, so when you do, make sure you take it. It'll all work out in the end sure, but sometimes you need to take your future into your own hands instead of leaving it to fate. Like putting yourself out there and auditioning for America's Got Talent, or making a presentation for a promotion. Doing whatever you need to to get where you're going. That's what I did. I took that one shot.

Dancin' Away With My Heart

Every time I see Hannah and Micah doing their Beauty and the Beast waltz, I die a little inside. What I wouldn't give for a guy to just dance with me and hold me just to let me know he cares about me. For him to sweep me off my feet and me to let him, no matter how much it hurts me later. For the guy I like to have an epiphany and come running to me and ask me out and just fall for me for once. Whenever I talk to him, I get butterflies and I can't help think that he has my heart. I long for the day when we go to Ball together and we dance; at the end of the night, I'll just tell him "You're dancing away with my heart." Because that's what he does everyday when we leave school. He takes my heart everywhere he goes because it's his to take. And it will be until.... well I don't know when it'll every stop being his. Probably when I get married and if I don't marry him. But maybe still even then. Who knows? All I know is for know, my heart's all his, and I only wish he could say the same for me.

Romeo and Juliet

"Romeo, o Romeo. Wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse thy name."
Those are probably my favorite lines of literature because they portray a love like no other. Literally like no other. I've never heard of a couple lying about their marriage and then killing themselves because one died. Juliet faked her death and then Romeo thought she was actually dead and killed himself. Juliet woke up and saw him dead and decided to kill herself. Is that love or what. Or what. They were impulsive, irrational, and immature. The triple - i. Romeo loved with his eyes, not his heart, and Juliet was uncertain of his love for her. We all think it's a beautiful yet tragic love story that we all wish we had, kinda. But it's not. It shows major human flaws, leading to our downfalls. And no one mentions that fact that Juliet was only 13 when she married Romeo. It just shows how immature they were in thinking they could get married and hide it from their families who were at feud with each other. My poor modern-day Juliet is at home, heart broken over her Romeo. Their love wasn't one to be publicized even to the ones closet to them. And now look where they are. Not talking to each other; she's done with him. Love isn't an easy thing and with all these examples of it everywhere, we believe it's always easy and perfect. But sometimes we end up hurting the ones we love the most, like Romeo and Juliet did.
"For never was a story of more woe than this of Juliet and her Romeo."

precious phrases that run through my mind (maybe not that precious)

i have many thoughts every day so i thought i'd let you in on some things i think about everyday:
awkward limb! hey hannah, do u wanna go to the movies with me tonight? i do. And the winner of America's Got Talent is.... Hannah Corley! i love him with all my heart, but he doesn't love me back. why is life so complicated? she is such a female dog! :) life sucks. i hope i didn't fail that quiz/test! i love him. i am a princess and i will stab you with this pencil! i hate my thighs. i need music. where's my phone? i love him. i need gum! (enter catchy song lyrics here). where has the economy gone? i wish i was president so i could fix everything. i still love him no matter what.  

For Logan

wow blogging is very therapeutic. never would've guessed i'd like to write. anyway i can't stop thinking about life and everything going on. it keeps me up at night sometimes. so much is going on and i'm even involved in things that aren't going on in my life, trying to help my friends and such with their issues. wow they have a lot :).but what's a girl gonna do when a guy she cares about and likes tells her he loved someone else. harsh right. even the people we care most about hurt us. it makes me think what people will do. why must we be so insensitive and impulsive. love isn't what it used to be. but we just have to keep our heads high and listen to our hearts because at the end of the day, that's what will give us the best advice.

Why?

High school isn't much different from middle school, just the more and harder work. Oh and the guys aren't any more mature either.:) anyway the topic on my mind the most lately has been love. i mean it's kinda hard to avoid. there's a guy in my life that i have liked for 3 years and he barely knows i exist. i think i might love him even though he's cocky, arrogant, and sometimes a douchebag. he's also in love with this other girl. boy do i now how to pick 'em. why do we always fall for the one we can't have? why do we fall and aren't caught? why, for once, can't life just go the way we want it to? these things run through my mind all day, every day and i can't stop wondering. i'm stuck on a guy i'll probably never get but i can't move on. why does God put people like that in our lives is it to test us, or show us what we can't and will never have? to get him or get over him would mean the world to me. he takes up most of my thoughts every day and i cry for him. he's broken my heart even though i've never had him. is that love or just not getting what you want and getting upset over it? great more things to ponder about. i'll write more later. thanks for reading my ranting.